Author: Dillon Stengel

Today I remade my website, finally got enough for a vps and decided it was within my best interest to go ahead and try and get a website going. I saw a couple different ways to monetize myself via this and having a dynamic web-server will allow me to embed a lot of web traffic and also build a large audience between things. Those things being things I haven’t as of yet created however this net will enmesh all.

Friday of this last week I went to go to a job interview, it seemed to have gone really well and I probably would have gotten it but it seems my background report didn’t clear for some reason and for another reason the person will not allow me to have a copy of that background report, which is in fact illegal. I am trying right now to get my hands on an attorney to get access to it or possibly sue them in order to get a copy of it and amend whatever is written on there. I have a sneaking suspicion a malicious ex employer has added false things to it and if that’s the case I’ll sue them as well. For a lawyer it’s just free money so for them it should be a pretty easy win.

I honestly could care less, most of the labor market is for schmucks anyways, I really have an excuse to beg people now as well so I guess my days of wage slavery are finally over anyways. Blessings in disguise. Maybe I will inherit a lot of money from this debacle anyways, don’t enjoy spending any of my time doing this though.

Anyways, pretty cool to have a website going again. I was talking to my brother and he seemed to not understand much about nutrition just the fad diets and stuff so I am going to use the actual sciences of chemistry and biology to help people not eat terribly and actually improve their body. Hopefully I can dispel a lot of myths that exist due to the psuedo-scientific and capitalistic crowd. Lots of people selling snake-oil these days.

Total pain in the butt trying to get in contact with a pro-bono lawyer, I don’t know how they expect people to get legal help when they are being attacked in their pockets in the first place. I was also thinking about just documenting all of this and filing for refuge status in a United Nations country. This country has been discriminating against me for a long while as it is already. I really don’t have much respect for the institutions in this country anymore as they are no longer for the people but rather run by the rich instead. I guess I have actually been being ganstalked by big tech for a while now, not really much I can do about it other than prove it. Won’t be very hard to do in a little while.

Once I finish learning all the things I want to I plan on fleeing the country anyways. Too many people know my business where I don’t speak a word of it to anyone, clearly I am being stalked and harassed by people. They have pushed silly conspiracy theories to try and explain it such as saying that it’s telepathy or that its because of my thoughts, but I am a follower of Christ so the fairy tale explanations don’t cut it, we don’t lie around here. The logical explanation is that I am being stalked by big tech, and lots of their lackeys are in on it too. Machine learning allows peoples thoughts to be read and transmitted to others, but the thoughts that they are receiving are not mine at all, just their own average data, and I am not an average person. A machine could never learn how I think or the contents of my thoughts, so they have resorted to a besmirch-ment campaign.

I really don’t think I am going to try and get a job to be honest, I probably am just gonna get a cardboard sign and beg up 100 dollars or so for the next few months. I have a legitimate excuse to beg, it sucks that a person doesn’t commit any crime his whole life then suddenly, some vindictive brat decides to try and destroy your life. It’s not the first time though, lots of the homeless people around here are the exact same way. I am pretty much immune to the crap at this point though. The employees of the city do the same things as well. Truly sad but also its really hilarious to me because they are obsessed with something that is entirely a work of fiction.

If people would stop running from reality then they would not be involved in the lies surrounding my life, and everyone who approaches me trying to talk to me about it I throw in the trash because that’s where they dwell, in rubbish. Wisdom has no relationship with foolishness and I really don’t have sympathy for schizo conspiracy theories even if the people are trying to destroy me with it. If everyone jumps off the cliff I won’t join them. The easiest thing to do is just keep collecting skills and being self reliant so they can’t deprive me of any of my civil liberties in general. I really hope someone from a foreign country helps to take me out of here. I really want to learn Chinese so I can emigrate over there, I’m sure that China will own the United States one day anyways so it’s a winning move.

Alright so I totally took quite a few sat tests today via “Khan Academy”, using the advanced math sat practice. I did two in a row and almost got 100% on them both so I can say that algebra is finally starting to make some intrinsic sense to me. Super excited about that because I need to master it to move further forward in all my intellectual pursuits at the moment. I also really want to be an electrician and solid algebra is a requirement for it.

I finished in “Honor of Kings” at grandmaster 22 stars, it dropped me down into diamond 1 so I gotta climb all the way up through master 4-1 before I get back in. Last night when I was playing I was getting the absolute worst teammates game after game, I think I had a 50% win rate after 5 games. Today however, I have won 5 in a row so it made up for it. My teams were totally impeccable, no one dying, just keeping our advantages without all the cocky play that low elo players often do. There were two trolls though, people in the garbage tiers seem to think its ok to play an adc top, not realizing it’s a team game and not only them. You have to have someone tanky or a fighter top lane so that you can protect your actual designated carries otherwise there is no way to compete against the enemy team because the composition will simply collapse. Anyways, I am going to get to grandmaster for the third season in a row without much difficulty I assume.

They totally buffed my main champion “MIlady”. Before she was buffed she had minions that would fight for her then expire, but now when they expire they combine into level 2 ones, and level 3 ones if it’s at all possible. The damage of the minions was buffed pretty largely too. So I have been easily winning lane, and being able to stand against the foe when my team is behind. I also have been playing the adc “Meng Ya” and he has a huge team presence via his ult which works like artillery and allows you to target large swathes of the map and contribute to teamfights even if you need to farm or apply lane pressure for map control.

Anyways I have just been on my mathematics grind, I have a pretty good schedule mapped out right now for getting further in it. I wish I had some better math music to listen to though, I want a vetted playlist that teachers use for teaching in their classes that way I KNOW for a fact that the songs have efficacy. Right now I have a handful of songs probably 200 but some of them are clearly just parodies and have no innate value for cognizance. Haven’t really delved into reddit forums so that’s likely my next step in the matter.

I wanted to watch a bunch of short movies for the mental affiliation and expansion via introducing new ideals into my perception, however, with the end of season on “Honor of Kings” I will likely be more into the ranked grind until I get to grandmaster before I resume it. Maybe I will just dedicate at least an hour to consuming the media, I don’t know yet. It’s a really hard balancing act between effective study and play time for me. I want to hit so many scopes that keep me healthy that at times it seems that there is a lot on my plate, even though my mood is always calm, for the most part. Stress and learning don’t mix. I don’t mix with people who try to stress other people out either. I think it’s just a developmental disorder anyways to try and stress others out. Honestly poor them because they were clearly abused their whole lives.

Like I said big plate, not certain the game plan, still need to copulate myself some poetry and physical therapy regiments. Just not sure what hours I should dedicate to them, I don’t really enjoy a set schedule in the first place and like to keep my mind dynamic so I don’t know. Now that I’m writing it and can think of it a bit better, maybe I will just select an hour for each subject, maybe two hours, choosing only one subject a day, and then do the next subject for two hours the next day etc.

I have a job interview with “The Wood Group” tomorrow, I hope it goes well and I get the job. I probably will because I have a lot of experience as a mental health tech in the first place and in psychology in general. I’m not certain if it’s a crazy house or an old folks home yet, I guess I’ll know tomorrow. I would have had a job interview today, but I don’t have any transportation to get there and the times were a bit impossible for me to maneuvre. The only reason I am able to get to this job interview today is because my aunt is gonna take me over there until I finish up, god bless her honestly, she has constantly been there for me when I needed it. I try to make very sure I don’t overstep my bounds with her, mostly because she is already so busy and I don’t want her to stretch herself too thin trying to help me out too.

She just got done taking care of my Papa who was degrading, until his recent death on April 15th of 2025. Luckily they were able to sell his house in order to cover all his medical bills, I guess that’s just the way the system has tried to set people up, buy a house, get in medical debt to stay alive just a little longer, then lose your families inheritance while you die. Honestly something better needs to exist because that is an obvious scam. If people weren’t so afraid of death it would be easier to manage, almost impossible for anyone to try and be that brave though.

His funeral was this last Saturday, on the 17th of April 2025. It was a pretty nice affair, I got to meet up with all my family members and stuff and got to hang around all the grand-kids, I really enjoyed hanging out with my brother more than everyone else this time around though. There were your typical speeches, life in review, friends speaking about their memories. I never really get terribly sad about death because I just see it as an unknown and new things are always exciting to me.

Alright so I really want to get back into creative writing as well as express my thoughts more eloquently. So hopefully writing everyday will help keep better words in the fluidity of my expression.

It’s honestly very hard to create a creative cycle journey as there are only so many hours in the day. I would like to embellish my more creative aspects but at the current time I am using a lot of my mental focus to try and remaster mathematics again.

Being a language of precision I figured that if I want to get excessively good at language learning in general then mathematics is definitely the best language to learn. I have also been spending some time learning Japanese, with a hope that I will be able to learn Chinese very easily with it.

The only reason I don’t study Chinese directly is because the “Great Firewall of China” seems to severely limit the amount of information I can find about learning their language and being unable to find much media online to learn from. Also I have had difficulty finding any kind of kids books or music with which to learn via immersion. So I am hoping instead to be able to learn the Japanese system as they are much more public and open and immerse myself in that culture, then when I have mastered the kunyomi of the kanji that then the onyomi will be easier to decipher.

Japanese also has a lot more free technological tools with which to help comprehend the language faster and with more precision. Chinese is hard in general because I can’t find too much in the form of pronunciation due to the lack of tools.

I have also begun to try and watch some short films at the end of the day, figure I will get some new ideas or visit some new places essentially via cinema. I like the shorter films because a 2 hour movie just doesn’t really grip my attention anymore. Learning in English 4 the outline of how a story progresses makes modern films extremely predictable and I have already seen so many that I can predict what’s going to happen within the first 15 minutes most of the time. Two hours is also a very long time to spend watching a movie that might turn out to be mediocre, whereas, movies around 10-30 minutes progress much more rapidly and usually, they experiment with different story telling structures making them a lot harder to predict. The other added benefit is that if I want to share a movie with someone the time sink isn’t so large that they won’t want to watch it, thus giving me more opportunity to discuss the films that I enjoy.

Music and affirmations, a constant, I’m not sure what I’m going for at the moment, I was on a memory stint for a long time, but I am about maxed out on my understanding of comprehension and self-study efficacy, it’s just a matter of committing and staying the course of whichever thing I want to learn. I find it pretty funny that my “Youtube” feed constantly likes to try and fill itself with study parameters and videos on study efficacy, though when I watch, seldom will I find anything new. “Fluent Forever” was one of the greatest books I have ever read on language acquisition and really has shifted my perspective on skills, wherein, each skill is essentially simply a language where you just need to learn the key terms and symbols and really nothing else exists other than that.

I’ve been looking for a job again, I may have gotten one at the “Wood Group”, which is a place I have worked for before. Essentially it is a mental health facility for people in crisis and I would be the intermediary for intake and care of the clients that we end up serving. I really would like that job because it is more mental than physical and the physical parts are also super easy to do. Last time I worked there, there was a lot of downtime which gave me a lot of time to study and do the things that I want so that would also be a pretty big boon for me in general.

I also got offered another interview with a place called “Vexus Fiber” which I am assuming is a telecom company that distributes internet services residentially. Not very sure what the job entails tbh, it might be a sales position or a customer service position, either way, I have a large amount of experience in the computer science world and the world of physics so it would be another very easy gig for me to handle.

I need to work out more. I was thinking about making a page with a bunch of different exercise posts and what they are for. That way I can keep track of a plan, as well as, all the videos I need in order to fulfill it. It would also help in general because I need to make a physical therapy regiment and that would be an excellent place to start.

I want to make another page where I review the short films I watched before, that way I can more easily formulate expressions of review off the top of my head in general when speaking to others.

Probably it is, that I should also create a page dedicated to poetry that way I am able to practice writing thematically and with eloquent speech in general. It has been a long time since I wrote any poetry however, so I will probably need to review some before making my play at it again. I guess that means I should also make a page dedicated to other’s poems that way I can review them and keep track of the ones I enjoy.

Last night there were a bunch of tornadoes all around Texas, I think they said that there were 28 total tornado’s, I was staying at the shelter so they made everyone go downstairs for an hour or so until the tornado warning was passed and the all clear given. Other than that, not really much to report on. I think creating separate pages for different concepts will honestly be the best way for me to begin writing down those things I wish to remember and practice upon or review later on. So, I think I am off to go and achieve as such and make those pages.