I never know what word to start off an entry with to be honest, when I look back I see that I use “alright” a lot so the first thing I do is try to not use alright lol. I literally have struggled with that my entire life, I was told at an early age that no one wants to read the same words over and over again so it’s really important to me that I try to keep some sum of variance in my writings in general. Though, every fiber of my being would just love to start out with “Alright, so, …” I really can’t help it but maybe I can push it out of me with more practice.
My mom is the best to be honest, and if you think your mom is better than mine I would tell you not to compare but I would be so very happy for you that you know what it is like to have a beautiful woman who loves you past physical motivations and beyond that which is selfish and wholly unselfish. Honestly when I think of the wonderful love my mother has given me I see that I fall utterly short of the kind of beauty she has in her heart but at the same time, I am glad that I know such a thing and I aspire to be a better person every-time she graces me with her presence. I have been trying to talk to her more often simply because it renews my mind, and reminds me of the wonderful things life has to offer in general. I can really only thank God for putting such great women in my life. My mom is the best woman in my life, my Grandma was the second, my Granee is the third, and my Aunt is the fourth. I think it is really funny how love without sexual expectation is just in general more wholesome and unselfish. I honestly wish I could be in the same scope of mind as the fantastic women God has put in my life. If I could find a wife half as good as them I would be a blessed man.
Speaking of God, I don’t really have an explanation for the kind of “coincidences” that take place in my life other than attributing them to an omnipotent force that sees all and judges rightly. Far from being the only instance of such amazing-ness I have experienced this little sequence of concomitances. So I have of course been studying very hard to try and become an “Electricians Apprentice” and have every skill I need for it other than mathematical precision. I probably could enter the apprenticeship now but if my algebra skills are top notch I will simply be paid for school instead of having to pay for it.
Well, I have made a lot of breakthroughs in mathematics in general lately and this is where the strange happenstances begin. I was wondering just how one could intrinsically understand the language of mathematics better, and I decided that perhaps proof writing is the best way to get there. As I was reading one of the books it talked about different steps of mathematical literacy, thus being some semblance of learning takes place in stages being how, where, and why. That you can know how and where to use equations but seldom does any student understand the why of how it works or the why of where it works. Well, I can’t articulate just the kind of gene’s equ that that entails unless you know why either. The miracle isn’t in that but in this, I had also decided I would read the great epics that had been suggested to me instead of playing video games or trying to watch film in my time outside of my study hours. I read the first volume of “The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy” and finished “1984” and oh my god, if they didn’t also just perfectly encapsulate the same mathematical proofs over and over again, just as my proof textbook had outlined, then I would be a liar.
Really that last paragraph doesn’t do justice to how fascinating that is simply because I also don’t want to potentially spoil the wonder one may find about the about-ness of the same walk should they be on that path too. If you want to pick up the math textbook yourself it’s called “Proofs A Long-Form Mathematics Textbook” by “Jay Cummings”. I also had the thing with the money happen, and you could probably chunk this up to data science and echo chambers, but the content I see in general always, always adapts to the things I am pondering in my mind, not so much as algorithmic and catering towards such, but more so like a constant surveillance where everything is accounted for and everything unfolds in general to accommodate my learning step by step. Such as, when I study the mathematics in general, I really have no clue what the right thing to do next is or the prerequisite and its’ antecedents, and yet, without fail, I always seem to stumble into exactly that. I learned a long time ago that people will waste their whole lives trying to learn a single thing because they have no scope of the entire field, and the opposite unfolds for me all the time. Someone told me this parable, there was a man that spent five weeks using a shovel to set up his fence and was awfully proud of his hard work, but it was a waste of time as well, his neighbor had better tools and set up his fence in a week. Just because you think you are working hard, doesn’t mean you aren’t wasting your time. That is why it is so important to scope a situation out. That has always been a focus of mine, and due to my pursuit of such scopes, and trust in God, it is as if such things unfold naturally for me at this point. The other strange thing in my own empirical evidence, was my discovery of AI and tools that allow you to scour through datasets for information in general. I was reading genesis in Latin, and then reading about how Abraham was told to destroy a city, and he said but lord, what if there are 30 good people there, would you spare them? “Yes”, he replied,. “And if there were 25?” “Yes” he replied, all the way down to about 10-15(these numbers are probably off by the way), it was this method of inquiry that in my mind made the last block to the theoretics of how AI would work in general and the very next day someone taught me about “Chat-GPT” and Google Scholar in the same hand.
Reading the bible in Latin, by the way, is much different than the english translation, there is a lot left out of the English translation. I do believe the Greek is the most concise for the “New Testament” but when we consider that Latin is/was the learned language in all higher education during the intellectual renaissance during and after the medieval period, and was considered required learning until about the 1960s, there is another metaphysical layer to be clearly observed and experienced with its study. Not to mention, it is essentially the mother tongue of the modern English as well as various European Dialects. Technically it is German, which is no surprise when we consider the Romans fulfilled the biblical prophecies, as well as the Nazi party which referred to themselves as the “Third Reich” the first Reich, being the “Holy Roman Empire”, the Germans having killed 6 million Jews and buying the land of Israel with their blood by proxy, is in fact another old testament prophecy being fulfilled.
Honestly it’s a fun little game. I don’t endorse Nazism by the way, however to be ignorant of such is quite clearly to the detriment of society, it is an amazing cornerstone, thus being rejected by all, and a testament to human ability and belief and just what such things are capable of. Beyond good and evil is the penultimate truth of the bible, those who cling to such ideals are quite ignorant of truth in general. Hard to accept for a lot of people, and that is because they refuse to take themselves out of a personal perspective and see things as a whole. It is usually why I won’t pity people who have harmed themselves excessively and blame others for it, such as a lot of so called “political activists” these days. They have absolutely no idea how to make change and they think that screaming their demands is a way to somehow dismantle the systems that oppress them, instead of learning of what such things are and trying to dismantle them. Quite clearly if their demands were satisfied things would be in much worse shape in general because it is like giving a child whatever it wants and wondering why it has diabetes and is dying.
I highly suggest reading “1984”.. Some less learned folks would consider the ending as the proper place to be, but that is not being conveyed, it was his betrayal of his love and his principles that cause him to die, and not live, to beg for death and welcome it. It was not liberation, it was the death of his soul, and the subjugation of his will to that of those who wished to control the physical and psychical world.I really shan’t ever take for granted the classical education I received in life. I see this new generation very close to mental retardation in general, and I honestly believe that the government will just holocaust them all at some point, there is no way to sustain them and sustain truth and technology as it is. They would be very easy to replace at this point, and they will likely force them to test their abilities. Without doubt they are using machine learning to find those who endorse “Brain Rot” and are targeting them for removal from society. To those saying that this is anti-christian just know that we are told to deliver you to satan in the first place, it is our place to judge, because you know not truth you have become inarticulate in it. Society won’t adapt to your stupidity, the basis is to kill you in mass, no matter how much you try and struggle in vain to change this metaphysically you will never come close to the power of mass genocide repeatedly throughout society, and you are simply not brave enough to ever gain that much power.
Anyways, beyond good and evil is the truth. The road to destruction is wide, but the way to heaven is narrow. Many will claim to have known Christ and he will reject them saying “I know ye not thy workers of iniquity, depart from me.” “The wicked will not inherit the kingdom of heaven”. Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life“. “No one comes to the Father except through me.” Also it says in the beginning that Jesus was the Word, the Word made flesh, so if you utter deceit, just know that you have denied Christ, and he has denied you.
The synchronicity I experienced today, was vehemently denying those who claim Christ yet, walk around like lunatics, expecting the juju majic that the old testament promises, when the prophets and Jesus said they were all whores and liars, the synagouge of satan. and as I attended service I got the verse of Luke10:3-5 “3 Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. 4 Do not take a purse or bag or sandals; and do not greet anyone on the road.
5 “When you enter a house, first say, ‘Peace to this house.’ 6 If someone who promotes peace is there, your peace will rest on them; if not, it will return to you. 7 Stay there, eating and drinking whatever they give you, for the worker deserves his wages. Do not move around from house to house.
8 “When you enter a town and are welcomed, eat what is offered to you. 9 Heal the sick who are there and tell them, ‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.’ 10 But when you enter a town and are not welcomed, go into its streets and say, 11 ‘Even the dust of your town we wipe from our feet as a warning to you. Yet be sure of this: The kingdom of God has come near.’ 12 I tell you, it will be more bearable on that day for Sodom than for that town.”
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